photos from thisyear!

so hello we have been terrible

So wow its been like forever but i feel the need to blog again! I have been struggling trying to get this baby weight off! Up and Down Up and down! But I am going to have a positive outlook! I have slumped back into negative thinking and some old bad habits! It is time to start affirmations and take it one moment at a time so that I can get back to me! But besides the weight loss my life has been pretty blessed! I have a complete healthy family! Felicity has brought a lot of fun into our lives! And she will be a year on sept 13th! This has flown by and make me sad how quickly they grow up! So I have really been trying to take the time to enjoy her and all of those moments you can not get back! We have had weddings in the family and we went to Puerto Rico! fun filled year!

MMMM well I guess i have to rethink my goals for the year!

Ok while our trip to Texas was filled with adventure with two car accidents and fun filled excitement! I found out a week ago we can add another accident to the Texas trip. HAHAHA! Well it's not that funny! I am going to have my fourth baby due in September. So I guess i wont be actively trying to lose weight for 10 months. This was unplanned and took me a few days to get used to the idea sense i still wanted to drop 15 pounds. My initial response was tears and fear. I DON'T WANT TO GAIN MY WEIGHT BACK! Well now I am feeling excited! so here's the new goals!

1. Gain baby not extra fat!
2. Eat healthy!
3. work out through out the pregnancy!
4. Jump right back on after having the baby!

It's check in TIME! Yikes!

So I wrote on my last post how I was going to survive the holidays. Now I am checking in to tell you what went right and what did not! So I had a plan and it was a good plan but the plan did not include being in the car for six days on a 12 day vacation to see the family. I packed healthy snacks for our what was to be a 2 day drive to Texas only to get stuck in different states do to the snow. I was out of healthy food by Christmas eve day and got stuck in Oklahoma that night because of the worst snow storm in there history and had to eat my dinner from a vending machine and might i add there are not to many healthy options in a vending machine. I got up early to go run at each hotel on the treadmills but found that they were broken! But I did work out the day we had started our journey to Texas. Once I reached Texas I worked out pretty much everyday running and three days going to the gym to lift YAY me! I ate good food most of the time always starting out with a healthy breakfast but finding that by dinner I was not doing so well. I did go shopping but didn't do all I had planned food wise. So when I got home I had gained 4 pounds! I was disappointed sense i ran 5 mile on almost every day but I then realized that maybe it would have been a 10 pound gain if I hadn't run. I am back on track and have let go of the fact that i didn't follow my plan as well as I had liked, But I did have a great Christmas vacation once we had arrived. I weighed my self this morning and I was back down my 4 pounds so all is well! I have set new goals this year. Here is my list!

1. Lose these last 15 pounds

2. Run three races

3. Be a better everything mother, friend, wife, and person.

4. Find Balance.

5. Do charity

6. Conquer our finances

7. make family a priority

8. Quit Marie calendars!

9. Take a enrichment class( art or language or something)

Hope you are thinking of some goals for your year! It makes life enjoyable!

Surviving the Holiday's!

If you are like most people the holidays hit and we tend to eat an extra 650 calories a day! Which adds up to about 6 to 15 pounds by mid January! Shocking! I know, but we want to still enjoy the holidays. I have a plan to help me through the holidays. I'll let you know how it works out in January. Here's my plan. I am going to plan what I am going to eat before I get to a party. We all tend to know what our family is going to make at different parties. I am going to write it down even if I blew it! Because being accountable will help you not to over indulge even more. For some reason we hate to write those extra items down but really who are you hiding it from? Your self? I am going to exercise even on Christmas and Christmas eve. If I have to get up early to do it I will. I will not have high expectations of weight loss for this month I will just try not to gain. I will allow my self to enjoy some of my favorite treats like Jeanies homemade chocolates they are to die for! I will not deprive my self of the holiday festivities but will not eat treats every day! I will still eat healthy food allowing room for indulgence on Christmas and Christmas eve and new years eve! The holidays are not a time of food but a time to enjoy your loved ones. I will not eat junk unless i really love it. How often do we find ourselves eating something we really don't like just because its there? I know I catch my self doing that a lot. So here is the the plan broken down.

1. I will write down all food even movie popcorn and chocolate.

2. I will exercise 5 to 6 days a week. even on Christmas!

3. I will only eat things that I love. And only on that holiday occasion.

4. I will enjoy my time with family and remember its not about the food.

5. I will plan out my food that I'm going to eat for the rest of the time even though I will be out of town and at some one elses house.

6. I will not stress about weight loss just maintain.

7. I will not beat myself up for any mistakes i make I will let go and move on.

So there it is. Happy holiday's to all of you! And those that are working on weight loss good luck and you can do it!

There is so much in my life I am greatful for!

I am grateful for my family. I get to see my beautiful children every day. I have a hard working husband who goes out everyday to make our lives better. I am grateful for my body it lets me do things that I never imagined I could ever do. I thank god often for giving me this body in which I neglected for years. I now show much respect for a body that can get up every day and work hard and run miles on end. A body that heals quickly from injury and can hold my 7 year old. A body that keeps breathing and a heart that keeps beating. I'm grateful for my soul. A soul that loves and cares for others. A soul that doesn't let me quit when my body thinks its tired. I am thankful for my mind. A mind that is not closed but feels enlightened when it questions the world around it. I am grateful for my dear friends who are there for me when I need them. Who love me regardless of what my weight was or is. Who love me no matter what my faith is or my political views. I am thankful for my savor and hope to try and live like him even though my short comings are not few. I feel so much gratitude for all that I have been blessed with in my life. Including the strength to rise from a dark pit in which I dug my self. I know this is not necessarily a weight loss post but in life when you see the positive you find happiness and contentment in your self. And that is part of what you must do to lose weight and keep it off.

The other half in moab!

This was my first half marathon! I say that as if I know for sure there will be more to come. I trained hard and worked hard and I did it! It was amazing. The course was extremely hard with miles of steep hills. But my goal was to not walk up any of those hills! AND I DID IT! There were times I had to talk to myself to keep my legs going. I am glad I kept going! I have experienced some hurtles to get to run this race so it seemed even that much more important to run it! I got tendinitis in my ankle and knee a week before and had to have my first run back besides a quick ten min on in the physical therapist office the MARATHON! I also have had runners trot during all my long runs so I was extremely scared of what was to come. I was so nervous and excited the night before and even the day of I had the worst butterflies waiting to go to the starting line. I remember the thought process well. I remember thinking am I sure I'm ready for this? Am I sure I can run this? I was terrified and then the race began and I was feeling good staying on pace and enjoying some very small hills think oh I could run like this forever. Then mile 7 came and the hills got steep and very long! I watched people fall back and start to walk! I thought oh I could just walk it would be OK but I struggled with the thought and decided no I WILL RUN THESE HILLS! I looked down to my feet on every hill not to be intimidated by the length of them. I also DID GET THE RUNNERS TROT by mile 8 and had to stop at every porta potty they had until the end! But I didn't quit running! My time was 2 hr 20 min 31 sec. I think I would have been faster if the trots hadn't made me stop! but still over all a great experience!